I'll be embarking on an awesome career journey wef April 11, 2011... A career dream came so true... after years of perseverance, and not giving up to find the the right path. By God's grace all things are made possible, if I dare to continue dreaming BIG. All thanks to the Lord!
That's for a career goal I have in the Lord. As for new friendship matters...
I hope for a friendship that may last a little longer, since I'm afraid to fall in love again, and hence I need some ample time to know a person better. But lately, I observed almost most of them seem lack of patience and give up easily.
For the whole month of March, it had been a blessing to meet people of diverse backgrounds. I never knew I'm being blessed with a few dates. However, those dates I've attended, I felt so "clueless/ heartless/sorry"... I do not seem to have any feeling. It's like hollow with no heart in my body. Will someone out there able to mold a new heart for me? Will I ever be happy in love again? Will I ever be truly loved by someone again? My dear late Jerry, my heart has turned into ashes on the day you left me... Blown together with you. When I was with you, I just knew you would be the one I want to spend my life with. Will I ever be sure about who I want to spend my life with again? Umm... I really feel so "robotic" in dating, though it is something new & challenging at my age. Hahahaha... Well, I just don't know how to be in love again. I just don't know how to enjoy the company of a man. I'm also being skeptical towards men. Umm... Men, please forgive me & allow me to have little assurance as I have so many questions in my head. Is he genuine? Will he be interested in me for my personality, or physical appearance? *sigh* O'Lord, I rest my love matter in Your hands. May He guide the man I love to mold a new heart for me, at His will, at His timing. O'Lord, I will wait patiently. Ummm... I believe Heavenly Father knows what is best for me as He plans to prosper me & not harm me, He plans to give me hope & future. (Jeremiah 29:11)
